Hypnotherapy

I went to see a hypnotherapist on Thursday, all the way in Castro Valley (50 minutes drive). I left with mixed feelings.

The talk before the hypnosis was interesting, about the body-mind connection, and the subconscious that may have formed wrong ideas in childhood with the intention of protecting me, but it turns out to hurt me instead. The power of thoughts, beliefs etc.

During the hypnosis I could "hear" the my mind chatter, couldn't get rid of it. Some issues came up, nothing in the sort of hidden memories. I did make some new connections and understandings. Yet, it felt somewhat shallow. Perhaps I just expected too much. The therapist also said I resisted, so perhaps I'm just not the type for this kind of treatment.

When it was over, the therapist told me we were more than an hour over time, and asked that I pay for the extra hour. It left me feeling cheated; I knew ahead of time her hourly rate, which isn't cheap, and I knew first meeting was going to be two hours. What I wasn't told is that the meeting may be longer. Since, for obvious reasons, she was the one keeping track of time, I have to wonder...

In any case, my homework assignment is to visualize the tumor dissolving, disappearing and totally gone by my next MRI. Also to relax and make it a top priority.
While I don't visualize myself going to see her again, I think the above ideas are good. In fact, it gives me an idea for a short animation!